Monday, February 21, 2011

Me? A Kitchen Witch?

Over the past couple of weeks I've been trying to figure out how to keep my family healthy and stay within budget at the same time considering it costs an arm and a leg to go completely organic with a family of 5 (that includes my brother). So, I've first been following a friend of mine's blog, , who is Vegan and she has such wonderful recipes. She has also helped me learn to make home made almond milk, YUM! I've also been thinking what can I make at home to save a bit of cash....BREAD! That is my first venture. Ok, so, it took me 3 tries, finding a new recipe, and some arm work to get it right, but last night I made 2 loaves that I have to admit, are pretty damn good! *pat pat* Also, yesterday, I made rose water for my new incense blend for Ostara, got laundry done, cleaned the house, and it all felt so wonderful to do. That evening, while I'm setting up my almonds to soak over night for more almond milk this week, I'm thinking what else I can make to save money and stay healthy, BUTTER!!!

Then, it hit me, I'm becoming a Kitchen Witch!!! ACK!!!

 Kitchen Witch's are the June Cleaver of the Pagan world. They have home made everything, they work with herbs for healing and magickal, they have a very magickal home with books and spinning wheels, and, and.....oh lawd, I have all that (excluding the spinning wheel, all though, I'm learning to knit). Me though, a Kitchen Witch, please. I'm not exactly the most house wifeish of people. I cuss, I drink, I smoke (yes, I smoke, don't give me any crap please, it's my last vice to give up...if you only knew), I don't really keep my kids away from R rated books or movies, (unless it's really bad, I do have to watch them first to make a judgment) I don't go around in skirts all day talking to the Fairies, ok, well, maybe I do talk to the Fairies but I don't go around in skirts all day, I'm a pj's woman! I'm me, I'm the former bad ass, the one who speaks her mind no matter what people think, the one who still, after almost 20 years, has recovering drug brain.

 Who am I kidding? I like this change, and I'm frolicking along with every step.

 I have envied a friend of mine for years who grows herbs, makes home made salves and all. I've always wondered who I "really" was on the Path and all though I love Celtic and the Eastern/Middle Eastern cultures, I've always found myself day dreaming of making my own bread, walking by the creek barefoot, talking with the Faires, and growing my own herbs and teaching my girls to do the same. I've always read books on, Hedge Witch, Green Witch, Fey Magick, and I always "wanted" to be that person, that type of Witch. Making bread and rose water yesterday while cleaning and doing laundry really brought out a different side in me. It was a beautiful day, warm, sunny, and I felt the magick in the air. Walking through my house now, with the left over smell of fresh baked bread lingering in the air along with the consistent smell of incense in my home, and the looking at my hearth and seeing the dried Mistletoe and the drying rose bud hanging there, I relaize, I'm taking the steps to being who I wanted to become on this Path for 18 years.....

A Kitchen Witch!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Such lovely happenings in one store...

Today I went to Hobby Lobby to buy knitting needles and yarn because the girls, and myself, want to learn to knit. I do love going into Hobby Lobby, it's such a relaxing feeling when I go in there. I enjoy going there by myself too because I can get lost in my own mind and get ideas on things I wouldn't have thought of with other people around me. Today however, had a little difference in it.

I'm walking down the isle and I see a beautiful little girl sitting in the buggy. She couldn't be no more then maybe 2, and she was sticking her head around the corner smiling at another person yelling, "Hey! Hey!". Her mother and grandmother were looking at something I didn't notice, speaking to each other about it in Spanish. Seeing that little girl yelling Hey was adorable in itself, but, when I ws a few feet away, I heard the mother begin to sing with her little girl, Frère Jacques, in Spanish. It was at that moment where I took a moment to be grateful that I live where a Hispanic woman openly sings to her daughter a French song in Spanish in an English speaking country. I just felt how lucky I was  to vicariously share a moment like that with them. 

Then, as I was checking out, a women who was ahead of me was such a beautifully positive person. She just had nothing but goodness coming out of her. When she finished checking out she told the cashier, "Thank you, you have been a blessing in my life at this moment, I truly appreciate who you are, and thank you for being in my life at this time" then she turns to me and says, "Thank you for being so patient, you are a wonderful person for that" I couldn't help but smile and say thank you and told her to have a wonderful day and she comes back, smiles, and tells a joke;

What do you get when you cross yeast with shoe polish?
Rise and Shine!!

LOL, yes, I know it was silly, but just knowing I met a woman with such warmth and love and positivity, that joke made me laugh like it was the best joke I ever heard

It was just so good to be apart of things today, to hear, and meet such beautiful people, if only for a moment. When you're able to stop for a moment and just listen to the world, you will see beauty and peace is always around you.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Gaining Focus

I have a bit of a fear with my journey in home/un schooling the girls, my focus....or lack there of. I've always claimed myself as the Queen of Procrastination, like right now, I should be working but instead, I'm blogging lol. I have a lot that I do in my life, being active in the Pagan community through various groups, getting my store off the ground and the different festivals we plan to have a booth at for the store, workshops, and soon online teaching. That doesn't include all the other things that aren't mentioned here. I love EVERYTHING I do, please understand, and my plate isn't to full considering everything I do is what I want to do, however, my focus is lacking in some areas, the "paying" job is one of them.

 I work from home, (don't ask what I do, it won't be mentioned here due to it's odd nature) and it's a regular paying job, commission based, however, I've done it over 4 years, and I'm management, so, honestly, I do rather well. Also, let me mention, I LOVE my job, I do, I LOVE it! It's fun, exciting, it's different, and it pays well, so, why can I not focus on it to get the money I need to be able to do all the above things that  I'm trying to develop so I can get paid for them instead?

I spout to the girls all the time, work before leisure, responsibilities MUST be taken care of in order to have your personal time and be able to enjoy it. I hate to say it, but it takes money to be able to live comfortably and to make money you must work. What kind of parent am I to bash this into my children's brains and then turn around and neglect  the one job I have that pays me well and consistently? I don't want to be one of those parents to have the phrase of "Do as I say not as I do" attached to them. However, I have such an issue with trying to direct my focus on the things that help me pay for my things that I want to develop into a life long and dependable career. It's hard, and I don't have an answer, at least, not an answer that will solve this issue without doing something that I should be doing anyway, which is MAKE it my focus.

 That's the downfall with being a Spiritual adviser, I know what I need to do to make this work. I know the answers I would give someone who came to me with the same issues, but, doing it myself, well, that's the hard part. Yes, meditation, focal gazing, even burning incense only directed towards my job. So many things I can do, but getting me to do them is hard. So, I worry, will my children see this and follow in my footsteps and grow into the Queen of Procrastination, or will they see how I struggle day to day and say, I refuse to be that way and I will take a stand and keep my eye on the ball.

 I don't know, but, what I do know is, I may struggle with this issue, but I will win over this issue. I will find a way to combate my flaw and work to bring that balance I so love into my life on this issue. I refuse to just post on here, "I have no focus", and not work to grab what I need to gain focus.

(I feel like playing "I Will Survive" now...go figure)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Let's Get Ready To RUMMMBBBBLLLLLEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was explaining to the girls yesterday their new lesson that will be done every week, and Kathleen decided she wasn't to terribly happy about it. I'm still very new at home/un schooling my girls so things are changing a lot to get a good footing on things. I was having them, Monday thru Friday, find a topic to research and write about what they learned, well, they were copying things down and not putting it into their own words. So, I decided to change that up and give them a topic each week for an essay to do. Now, the essay will have rules, no less then 200 words, a certain amount of facts, correct spelling and punctuation. They must research, take notes, make a rouch draft, have someone proof read it for them, then a final draft. This will all count for language arts of course.

Now, it wasn't that Kathleen hates to write, on the contrary, she is working on her book right now which is already past 87 pages. So, writing is not the issue here. The issue that she had was a requirement on the word amount. Now, that seams like something that a parent could say, well, sorry love, there are rules to follow in this world and you must learn to follow rules, and in a nut shell that's basically how what I said. Understand though, she was mighty set on this...MIGHTY set.

 Now, a little about Kathleen, she is a VERY independent person, always has been. Even as a baby she did what she did, you put her on a blanket with one toy and she was fine for hours. You take the toy away, set her alone on the blanket, she was still fine. In PreK, the teacher was amazed how she would come into class and do her own thing and the kids would go to her, not the other way around. She never worried about being alone, or being surrounded by people. Grounding her is pretty much a waste of time, she lives in her own world and it doesn't bother her. We took everything away from her, and she was fine with that. She is a person of extreme independence. Which can, and is becoming a problem.

 Kathleen does not play well with other....

 No, she isn't rude, mean, or uncaring, on the contrary, she is a very caring loving person, it's just that she doesn't like other people helping her on anything. She feels she can do it better alone. She likes her world her way, and doesn't allow any else to have an opinion when you enter her world, and by god don't give her rules, she will debate you till the cows come home.

Now, back to the topic at hand, when I gave her the rules to the essays, she got that serious look, put her hands on her hips, and told me rather calmly, "No, do not give me a limit on what I can and can't do" that was like the guy at WWF yelling, "Let's get ready to RUMMMMMBLLLLEEEEEE!" So, instead of flipping out, cause for some reason, I LOVE when a teen puts their foot down an says no, I ask her why. She has some good points, she write more then that anyway, but, she is very good at finding all the facts and putting them in a great essay without it having to be so many words. She was wondering how she is going to know if she has hit 200 words...uhhh, count. She, I listened to all she had to say, some was reaching for a reason, some were valid points. So, now we have a bet. She is to make informative, all the required facts must be in there, punctuation and spelling correct. If she can meet those standards , she doesn't have to follow the word limit.

 I will keep you posted!!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Juno and Valentine's Day

The Romans celebrated a holiday on February 14th to honor Juno Fructifier, Queen of the Roman gods and goddesses as well as goddess of marriage. In one ritual, women would submit their names to a common box and men would each draw one out. These two would be a couple for the duration of the festival (and at times for the entire following year). Both rituals were designed to promote not only fertility, but also life generally.
So, Valentine's Day.

I ask Roger this morning, "Does Valentine's Day make you happy to have 3 women to come home to, or does it make you wish you had a son?"

His response, "Nope, Valentine's Day makes me wish I had 2 sons!"

LOL, I'm not really big on Valentine's Day, not that I'm a sour puss or anything, but, more of I like the surprise show of affection more then  the designated day. Of course, I'm a sap, I love the chick flicks that show all day, and the people who are able to reunite with loved ones today. Wanna see me cry like a bitch, show me a soldier surprise his wife and children by coming home on Valentine's Day, yea, that pulls the heart strings.

 I also don't look much into the Pagan affiliation with Valentine's Day. I always knew it was related to Juno, and the Roman tradition, but it wasn't something I would really set a ritual for and place in my BOS, however, to stop and think for a moment, what a wonderful day to thank Juno for the blessings of love in general. Everyone loves something or someone, no one is without love. Love is a very powerful word. If someone, a stranger, approached you on the street and told you they loved you, how would you react? Or is someone you know is angry and totally going ballistic, how would they react if you just blurted out to them, "I love you". Yes, it's that powerful, one word, one emotion, that powerful. 

 So, yea, I might make a time today to just meditate on the word love, how it makes me feel, how it affects the world. Sounds like a good essay for my kids as well. Hmmmm, kind of makes you rethink Valentine's Day doesn't it?

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Question of the Day - "Is Pagan Parenting Really So Different?"

Or, is it only as different as we, Pagan Parents, make it?

My thoughts on this is that it's is but isn't. My reasoning here is that, yes, my kids know about Athames, Chalices, Elements, Gods/ess and they know when to call someone Mr or Mrs and when to call them Lord or Lady, but, when I think deeply about it, is it really so different then a child who has grown up in a Christian environment? The ones who go to church on a regular basis know what an offering plate is, know what a pew is, know what a Bible is, and they know the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost along with who to call Mr and who to call Reverend/Pastor/Father and so on.

 So, yes, we do have some other difference that are rather notable, dancing around the bon fires is one big one. I don't think you will see a Christian child doing that while holding mommy's hand, do you? But, let's look at some other things that might be different.

Prejudice remarks from the uneducated; My youngest has a little Militant that she is going through right now, an she was wearing a gift that was given to her by a close friend to school, (a small Pentacle charm) and she had some friends tell her that's the "sign of the Devil" So, she got rather, "angry" about that. Understand, my children have been in circle since I was pregnant with them, so, they know about how people aren't  always educated, and think the drastic sometimes, so, I had to remind her of that. I don't think you will hear of a Christian mother having to calm her child cause they were told they were wearing a sign of the Devil one day.

So, back to the question at hand, is it REALLY all that different?

Me personally, as those who know me know, I'm not the most normal "mom" and Roger isn't the most normal "dad" but, we still have the same values and dreams as all the other Parents in the world. We want our girls to be happy, to be safe, and to follow their dreams and become strong, independent people who live through love and kindness. Our Spiritual choices are not part of the Pep Boys of religion, however, they are not much diferent when it comes to Parenting. My kids still have to clean their room and do the dishes, just sometimes they have to help me cleanse the Circle as well and wash the Chalice with the dishes.

Give me your opinion, I would love to hear everyone's thoughts on this. I just live my life, and so do my kids, but I know some Parents see it differently and I would love to hear more!!!

Friday, February 11, 2011

Thud Thud Thud of little feet...

All day long I've done nothing but cuddle up in the wolf bankie and watch, or better, dooze while listening to the celebration in Egypt. Now, I say dooze because I didn't make it past 20 minutes of sleep each time because of the lovely THUDS of 2 bored kids coming in and out of the living room. (Roger is working tonight so I had to rest on the couch)

My favorite thing though was when Kighla goes, "Shhhhhhhh, Mommy's asleep" while she is standing over me and trying to whisper/hollar down the hall. uggggggggg

So, needless to say, besides my head and my throat, I feel a bit better. Fever broke, a few times, and if I add up all the minutes I think I got about 5 hours of rest today. So, I, after sucking down some tea, inhaling more tea tree and eucalyptus then I care to, and my second dose of Mydol, (yes, my Aunt came to visit the same time) am ready for a solid meal of grits and eggs and then back to sleep.

A journey begun...

Today has been a very odd day. First off, I'm sick, very sick, but I'm thinking so clearly on getting things set up for my new home/un schooling journey I want to share with others that it's boggling my mind.

So, to clarify before I continue, I always put home/un schooling my daughters due to the fact this is new to me, and at this time, I'm not currently set up with a curriculum or schedule for teaching my daughters, plus, the full un schooling experience isn't for me. So, most likely, you will see me putting home/un schooling or eclectic schooling when I speak about home schooling.

The difference is very easy to understand in basic text;

Home Schooling; teaching children at home with the basic required curriculum through a scheduled time

Un Schooling; allowing children to choose their own subjects of learning without disapline or a set curriculum or schedule

Of course, I'm just paraphrasing, if you would like more information between the 2 you can of course call upon the mighty God Google.

This blog will be more then just about home/un schooling, but about how I'm able to balance that with family, marriage, an online business, my paying job, (which will never be mentioned on this blog due to it's you want to know, just ask, I might let you in on the joke) and being VERY active in the Pagan community.

So, as I will wright more later, I'm going to go and see if my throat can handle a smoothie and probably take another nap. Send me some healing energy, I haven't been this sick in a long time, and feel free to share this blog or your personal comments.

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